feeling the burn

You know what I love about reading a good book, the fact how it inspires me to write, to be who i want to be, and it gives me hope. I just finished reading Twenty Something - The Quarter-Life Crsis of Jack Lancaster by Iain Hollingshead.The book is basically about Jack a 25 year old guy in London who quits his job, dumps his girlfriend, all because he's not happy and he wants to find his purpose in life. There were so many points hit soo close to home to me, I have been feeling like Im in a transition stage in my life.

Things I found important in my life I see how foolish they really are, case in point I was watching EXTRA tonight, and I realized how much of a joke those shows are ("going inside the lives of celebrities".) They tease stories with false headlines to make you stay tunned only to find out the story was full of shit. Its a part of the business I realize that, a business I once thought I wanted to be in, but now at the moment I have no respect for it.

Sure I have dreams of rocking out a few novels, maybe a tv show or two, but its not for the fame but for the love of the craft. I remember watching an interview with MC (I know a constant point of reference for me, just like oprah what do you expect im black and gay lol,) she was saying how when she was a little girl she wanted to be famous, but never to the point where lies would be printed about her and her life would be under a microscope. Does becoming a public figure mean you are required to give up all sense of privacy? That is def a topic that I may go into another time but now its about the damn book.

I must say that I am really proud of myself for actually reading a book rather than spending my free time online checking out myspace and porn. For anyone 25 or any age really but def that 24-26 gap that feels lost without direction I should highly suggest picking up the book. For myself it was refreshing reading about a character who goes thru the same struggles taht I have/am. I honestly felt that I was only person who felt a particular way, and now I know Im not alone. I just wish more people who be more open about their struggles, because there really is strength in numbers.